navel gazing

i know im strong enough.
i know im justified.
i know i'll make it through.
im sure it's not that bad.

i know life's up and down.
i know it's warranted.
i know i should care less.
maybe i should care more.

i know it wont last forever.
i know it has to end.
i know i'll make it through.
i have to make it through.

i know im not alone.
i know they're there to help.
i know they want to help.
but i've never felt so alone.

i know im strong enough.
i know they're counting on me.
i know i got their backs.
i hope to God i'm doing what's right.

i know i will survive.
i know i will heal.
i know life will go on.
i know i will survive.

bladderdash revisited

alteration of former official statement

but then again the footie season has started.
i got that much to be excited of.
all important matches marked and noted.
bring it on..
GO GUNNERS!!

bladderdash

official statement

i have utterly nothing going on in my life.
thankyouverymuch.
have a nice day.

daft, but wat do i care

im a bloody useless piece of living paramecium wasting good oxygen on dis god's green earth. aka: hobo loser.

i earned the title, okay?

need to get out of this lurch. small, baby steps, one at a time.
one, i need to stop my pyjamas circle.
i change, from one pyjama to another. its all im wearing nowadays. literally. entirely only pjyamas. its downright scary.
two, reactivate my phone and get back in touch wif frens oi, if its up to me, my only non familial contact wud be the pizza delivery guy and the nextdoor maid.
three, i shall start trying to earn own money which means i need to cash the one paycheck i got from my moonlighting job i did 3 months ago and brush up my resume and start posting them. like it or not.
four, i will try to get out of the house more often. i probably spend 30minutes out of the house daily. tops. and dat is within home compound. i like to think im making up for lost times the 9 years ive been away but i kno better. pitiful. plain pitiful.
five, i shall try to workout more i can go 4 days straight without sweating or walking more than 30 steps a day. and as u can guess, im gaining weight obscenely fast. no suprise, huh? perfect embodiment of a sloth, trully.
six, i shall severe all my ties with the tv ah, dis is a hard one. i remarked to a friend once when asked of the infamous 'wen u getting a job?' question dat i cant get a job cause im engaged all 7 days of the week, with respective tv shows dat i allegedly cant miss. even during an earthquake. the sad thing is, i really meant it. im such a blehh. but seriously i really cant miss lost, or csi new york, or rockstar or desperate housewives. forget it, im a blehh. period
six, i shall finish doing my room. the good thing about this project it im actually making progress. the bad thing isi used to make this kinda progress in 20 minutes when i was in campus rather than the 3months 2weeks and 4days im taking now, living at home. its like a dimensional problem incurring affected by my location straight to my lethargic nerves and limbs. its a medical condition, im sure.
seven, i shall regarding ice cream as my daily supplement thinking i should nip dis one in the bud. its not that serious yet but ive been consuming serious mountload of ice cream. its good ice cream but i kno its really not good. hah. i went 2 days consuming only ice cream (and several delightful mini cupcakes) so u kno this could developd into something serious if allowed to travel its natural course. so there. this wud be my last tub, i promise.

okay. this is it for now.
shall report back in 3 days time.
over and out.