on learning to be happy

i am the most happy when im with my friends. and when im eating (explains a lot)
im happy when i play scrabble.
im happy when my whole family is safe and healthy.
im not very happy early in the morning before i get caffein or sugar administered through IV in my blood.
im happy when i find people i like and i can talk to.
im happy when im making coffee behind the counter and talking to nice people and knowing their story.
im happy with a good book that i wish wont end.
im not very happy with people cutting queues.
im happy with imagining ridiculous things that i wish would happen.
im happy knowing i really want other people to be happy.
im happy when i dont regret things i buy.
sometimes im happy im impulsive.
im happy thinking about stuff.
im happy doing henna hand design for cousins and brides.
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i wish i could be happy about my family more.
i wish i could be happy about things i have.
i wish i could be happy about people's good fortunes.
i wish i could be happy seeing how well friends have done.
i wish i could be happy about myself more.
i wish i could be happy about things i've done.
i wish i could be happy about stuff i've said.
i wish i could be happy with decisions i've made.
i wish i could be happy for happy sake.

regrets are dumb. i have none.