balik labuan *bleh*

well raya was fun
had lotsa fun hanging out wif cousins
mebbe its the 21years old thing
feel so grown up
and old
*speaking of which-me remembered the time at the labuan airport on my way home for the id celebration, there was this one kid who called me "auntie" (!!) budak bertuah betul..*

now me back in labuan
new semester
last semester
i told u i feel old right??
well this is it
le grand finale
well
i haf another 2 months or so but stil
man o man
outta labuan
fresh graduates
that is if i dun messed up my exams laa

loadsa stuff to do
final projects, practicals blah blah blah
oh well
*sigh*

im out
pressed for time, big time
later chicadas

balik kampung

OOooOO balik kampung
lalala

lagi 45 minutes nak balik kampung
(note to self:load up the CD player)
its a 2 hours drive east
not actually looking forward to it
its kewl tho
the plan is the to come back anothr 3 days
we'll see
nothing is certain wif my family during raya
so we'll see

ok
gotta pack
happy raya all
drive safe
eat plenty
ciao

whaddaya mean it only comes in blu?

went shopping today
wif d whole family
seriously, all 6 of us
and then theres my nan's maid whos staying wif us for a while
so 7
7 ppl piled up in the familys van n went shopping
and no,i dun tink im too old for it
my sister's one year older and she was wif us

nway
bot baju(s)
supposedly for raya la
but then all purchases were made wif lbuan super hot hot weather in mind
so, if its not setebal satu sel, im not buyin
got 2 nu pair of shuz tho
love em
and sum othr stuff
lala, i was rich (thanks abah for the duitss) for like, 2 hours and then i pulverized my whole financial standing into smithereens

oi raya nanti semua orang kasi duit tau
tau?
2 hari lagi nak raya
oh yeah

theres also seems to be a tragic baju raya tak siap story unfolding
ending undecided
all up to Cheros (person who my whole raya future depends on)
tolong siap kan eh?
altho i so dun care if i hafta raya wif my ol baju
its baju kurung je anyways (haf never ade selain bajukurung for bajuraya since forever)
updates on the developing suspenseful drama of my bajukurungs later
so, bed now
yawn

2 hari lagi nak raya!!

eid mubarak!!

dis prolly last me blog for awhile
raya break
coupla of days..mebbe weeks

to all those lost souls who r reading dis:
frens,non frens,haters n lover(s)
HAPPY EID UL FITR, u phreaks!
to err is human (me), to forgive, divine
im bloody broke, so give money


subtle eh?
have a nice raya everyone!
peace out

*yawn*

name: nella
dob: september, 5th 1983
location: home
occupation: student by default

- appearance -
hair: black; somewhat sunbleached
eyes: black
height: 5'3" onna gud day
style: depending on my medication
clothing: jeans/khakis & dark tshirt
make up: not when i can avoid it.
bodyart: multiple piercing?

- right now -
wearing: pajamas!
listening to: over and over (nelly feat tim mcgraw)
thinking of: eid card mailing list
where are you: family room
who are you with: moms laptop and my alter ego, jeremiah ali

- last thing -
bought: chickin pasta and snickers bar
read: terry pratchetts 'men at arms'
watched on tv: jon steward daily news on comedy central
said: that i need to use the line to my sister. about an hour ago. she said 5 minutes

- either/or -
tea or coffee: tea, sworn off coffee
achiever or slacker: self committed slacker, pseudo achiever millions have been fooled *evil laffter*
paperbacks or hardcover: paperbacks, anytime
cats or dogs: cows?
single or taken: taken but independently content
pen or pencil: three sharp pencils, a la jean ashworth bartle.
cassette or cd: CD.
coke or pepsi: coke. no questions about it
matches or a lighter: lighters are more practical. matches for their aesthetic values
rikki lake or oprah winfrey: oprah.

- who do you want to..? -
kill: my sister. oi, i need to use the line
get really wasted with: jenn joe. hes big fun. no guilt
be like: shirley temple *gratingly sweet and perky. wif curls*
avoid: certain member of the faculty. @least until aftr raya
kiss: leave me ur add, ill email u the list
be with: my bf. selected few skool frens. frens. sum of my starbux buddies.

- last person you -
touched: my mom while passing her the sauce during dinner
talked to: neo on the phone. my sister across the room
hugged: seriously cant remember
instant messaged: ubik r u married yet?
kissed: my baby bro? gosh lemme think..yeah, prolly my brother
who broke your heart: never got that far
fought with: my bloody sister again. adoption anyone?
you talked to on the phone: neo

- where do you -
eat: at home now so dining room/kitchen. but i snacked watching tv just now
dance: i dun club, so my room or wherever the groove needs it to be
cry: on the commode, in the toilet. no one can kno
wish you were: in san fransisco, dun ask

- have you ever -
dated one of your best friends?: yes both male and female
loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: can i get back on dis?
had alcohol?: never
done drugs?: prescribtion counts? either way, no
broken the law?: hell yes
ran away from home?: nope, not from lack of trying tho.
broken a bone?: all intact
cheated on a test?: erm, yes. duh
skinny dipped?: nope. where?
played truth or dare?: stupid, but yes
flashed someone?: almost, but no
mooned someone?: Yes.
kissed someone you didn't know?: definitely no
been on a talk show/game show?: Nope.
been in a fight?: oh yes. people, meet my sister and my two brothers and my mom
been on a plane?: yeah *scoff*
come close to dying?: I had a shoe thrown at me once.
cheated on your boy/girlfriend?: now i cant honestly answer dis and xpect to live, can i?
gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride?: yes
swam in the ocean?: kinda hard not to when its 5 minutes off campus
had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up?: yes.imagination overkill
really kissed someone of the same sex: erm, no...
touched a monkey: more than once actually. last was in lake toba

- your ideal -
guy/girl: ty pennington or freddie ljungberg but im willing to settle. lalala
your bedroom like?: airy, lotsa colors.think, ikea
your favorite thing for breakfast?: toast and butter
your favorite thing for lunch?: chicken anything (fajitas) fresh vege
your favorite thing for dinner?: sumthing wif desert
birthday present: complete works of roald dahl and terry pratchett

- future -
what day is it tomorrow?: sunday
what are you going to do after this?: sleep
who are you going to talk to?: my mom about my sister hogging the line
where are you going to go?: bed
how old will you be when you graduate?: 21 plus plus
what do you wanna be?: very rich, very happy
what is one of your dreams?: hanging out with the gunners 49ers and have freddie propose marriage

- are you -
a vegetarian?: no way
a good student: no. im bloody smart tho. really. i am.
good at cooking: NO!
good at knitting/sewing/quilting:no no no no no
a good singer?:like to think so.seriously, no. passable.nothng special (cowell?)
a good actor/actress?: oh yes. just no cameras please
a deep sleeper?: no and i can sleep anywhere
good dancer?: im okay
shy?: HA!
outgoing?: Well, what do you think, stranger? ;)
a good storyteller?: pull up a chair...
last words?: rideo risi risum meus bovis.lusus natura, noli me tange

movie rampage!

last paper was on oct 29th
flight home was on nov 4th
5 days gap filled wif me and assorted frens watching movies
lotsa lotsa movies
mostly reruns
but movies nonetheless

here are what i watched in no particular order
the days sorta all blurred into one long mind numbing celluloid fiesta after a while

american beauty
speed
unbreakable
6th sense still manage to freak me out after all this while specially the puke kid ghost *shudder*
fight club wurgh wurgh wurgh wurgh
bowling for columbine
eiffle im in lovemajority wins, i wasnt one of them
catch me if you can
shawshank redemption
con air
bend it like beckham
LOTR FOTR
mean girls
the usual suspects
crimson tide
remember the titans
gi jane
physco, revamp

there are prolly sum i missed but seriously, this list certified me as a bonafide movie buff, no?
wohooo
i kno im lazy for a reason

bleurgh

bush won
i tink i hate the world
i kno i hate bush winning
wud kerry make a betta president for the US?
i dunno
i tink (and i definiteli kno dat im not alone in this) bush is downright dumb
and now he's serving his second term as the president of the united states of america
sick world
was in the middle of indulging miself wif a huge tub of veryberry strawberry icecream when i saw the result broadcast
lost my appetite and went promptly to sleep
had nightmares of 'nuc-khi-ler' wars, ohio and bin laden.

i googled 'stupid bush quotes'
big fun

can the world survive another 4 years of bush?
and its nuc-chlee-ear, idiot

inna nutshell

Conservatives are not necessarily stupid, but most stupid people are conservatives. - John Stuart Mill

home!!

me home!
wow
took the 710 flight from lbuan
lalala

home *sigh* ; i was actualli looking forward to:
homecooked meals
i wuv my mom!

live football telecasts
wat the fark is wrong wif the gunners lately?
oh well, gunner 49ers rox all the way
stupit bloody draw wif southampton regardless

fastfoods
had my BK fix 5 seconds aftr touchdown
whopper shaped calories never tasted betta

cable tv
and was soreli disappointed.ick movies all around
even channel 13 let me down

polluted air
drastic change to the lungs. bad loaded air in KL.
one thing about lbuan is dat we haf fresh supply of pure O₂ day in/out and we sorta take it for granted. it takes a lungful of myriad of ozone removers for anyone to realized this.lalalala

shopping
nuff said

welcome home, ila
can we get this show on the road now?

blogging babeh

oi you      ::october 24th 2004

i want a mondo big slice of apple crumble pie wif big scoop of whipped cream at the side.
I WANT I WANT I WANT
*on special spoiled brat mode*

wat calories?

songs      ::october 23rd 2004

was rummaging thru my CD stacks wen i stumbled upon my elvis songs collection CD.i sorta dig elvis,the king is totalli alrite.its has been a while since
ive been in any mood to put him on.the player was on random and the first song dat came up was *ahem* love me tender. was totalli reminded of 1st i remember hearing
d song.i was prolly 2 or 3 and abah was singing (outta tune) along to d song and there was mak there laffng at abah *sigh* fuzzy feeling all over.
metink its the most romantic song of all time.definiteli.most romantic. *sigh*

heres to my housemates who said in July dat i dun haf a single romantic bone in my body

currentli listening a lot of Sheila On 7's bhenti berharap.supernice song.beautiful lyrics.nyum

messed up priorities      ::october 22nd 2004

between updating my blog VS studying for finals
i rather update my blogs anytime.no matter how inane,lame n insipid are the things i hafta say

between making fruit pudding wif housemates for fast breaking VS studying for finals
i rather fruit pudding miself im a menace in the kitchen, i hate cooking and im only gud @washing dishes.alas,kitchenduty stil wins handsdown

between rewatching my whole movie collection VS studying for finals
i rather go crosseye over d movies choi.do u even hafta ask?50reruns(per movie) is not anywhre near enuff *ahem*

between alphabetizing my storibuks VS studying for finals
i rather play librarian n sort my buks i like seeing my buks well organized.dont everyone?*sniffle*

between drinking hemlock VS studying for finals
i rather shakespear my death over notes revising? of course.anytime


cud i get anymore obvious?

service marketing paper in 5 days n counting.im so not screwed

belated blogs

the freak dat is me      ::october 20th 2004

i hate crossword,wif a vengence.altho i once won a crossword contest once when i was 14.i was a good scrabble player:played for
state but im outta practice now.when training for scrabble competition i cant/dun read,i identify composition of words instead.it was realli annonying.i readeverything ;books mostly but im not choosy.i find reading romance aperbacks relaxing n is sumthing i cud do without any brain effort so i read them by the lorryloads.mom used to say i cud read miself through a stampede.i guess i cud.i read very fast too.im absentmindedly health-concious but nowhere near as concious as shiren;i still drink coke a lot.i iron my bedsheets,i realli dun see anythg wrong wif this.definitely normal and necessary.i dont iron my pillowcases tho,dat wud be too weird.i colorcode my clothes-blacks,darks,colors and white.repeat for pants.i really like retro swing music,they r so beyond cool.im still not over white rock bands:ive read sumwhere dat growing outta them means dat ure sophisticated and coming of ur own or sumthing.wat load of bullshit.metallica rox, or used to;their latest album was crap.i go nuts over good movies.like i go nuts over good books.i adore terry pratchett to bits (we're back to books here) i have a favorite book gain after 11 years of going without:terry pratchett's night watch.happily well on my way of memorizing the whole dang book.my all-time (now second) favorite is still dahl's witch.i think LOTR movies is better than the books.hunks overload factor in the reel version notwithstanding.i think eomer by karl urban is the bestest middle earther.ellesar aragorn second and boromir third.hama aftr dat.theoden then and even wif miniscule screen time theodred is kinda cute.i tink legolas' androgeneity was a tad overdone,hes kewl tho.i tink harrypotter the movie sux.its unforgivable wat theyve done to a great book.i try to avoid watching the movie versions.i dun care about getting tanned by the sun,im alright wif the fact dat im 16 shades darker since i moved here but sumtimes in my (vain) hours i wish im fairer.im slightly delusional dat im okay-smart;i tink it has sumthing to do wif misleadingly getting into mensa wen i was small n then again earli dis year.mensa is overrated anyway.i talk to myself a lot but not when i tink people cud see me.i still havent given up on my french,u'd tink ill get the hint aftr 7 years of futile verb conjugating.im prolly gonna do sumthing about it when i can afford it.i always wish i haf more money.and more shoes.i really dun tink theres a point when ill say-i have enough shoes.not gonna happen.ill put stuff ive done in my to-do list so dat i cud cross it out.i have very high pain threshold altho ive given up body piercing.i talk real fast but i wish i dont.theres nothing i cud do about it anyway.when i converse
wif people of slower speech speed i get irritated n sumtime distracted.biggest paranoia is death.not very original but its freakishly true.theres time when im not a good fren.i get spiteful on occassion.when
im not practising mild hypocrisy i find myself to be extremely rude.i have no favorite color:i think its a disadvantage.i care too much about wat othr people thinks sumtime:i think its a total waste.i love getting
letters and postcards.i wish people wudnt see selfsent postages so weird;it'll makes things much easier then.i get flattered very easily.i cant blush;im too dark.im very accident prone.i tink i could be gud at american football, just need a chance to try the game.im very brand loyal.wearing eyeglasses makes me awkward and i tend to sweat n swear more then.im never blunt, i just dont expect people wud take offence in what im saying.i say things to hurt people wen the occasion calls for it and ill prolly keep doin it.ive lied and say my ideas or suggestions are from sumone more certified than me so people wud take it more seriously.it normally works.i give pretty good ideas at times.im obsessed wif smelling good all the time.ive hated people just because i dont like how they look.i get mighty depressed when i read about dforestation and pollution or global warming or other environmental destruction.i always wish im taller.i cant sing but i like to.i shop alone.i believe in retail therapy.i always notice the color of the sky.
i have an opinion on (almost) everything.im not very nice when i know i can get away wif it.

too many freaks, not enuff circus
hell, im prolly a whole country of circuses by miself.

skool bum personified      ::october 20th 2004

global marketing paper today
metinks me did ok
not entireli happy but ive done worse
xm sux
just dont tink im cut out to do these things, ykno, a student and xm and studying and stuff
aint my thing
never been
*guffaws*
tinking its high time for a career change,non?
based on work xperience i cud choose from:

• glorified barista working odd hours 6 days a week @starbux
  
• C++ tutor [yes,the dumb/defunct leadng the blind,i kno.but ive done dis n people totalli bot it]
  

not much to choose from
wat can i say,i live a very lame existance
but since ive got heaps of (kononnyer) talent, ive kept sum othr options open too

• wrestling announcer-i so kno i can do this la
• crash test dummy-no neurons required
• roller coaster safety inspector-free rides for life
  
• finishline flag waver
• movie subtitle scripter "bloody big" bm trnslate: "besar berdarah"
  

reckon i'd make it?
lalala
success::its all in the hips, babe

sliced bread award      ::october 19th 2004

THE GREEN TWIST TIE THINGY


i now award thee the winnowed and prestigious SLICED BREAD AWARD for thou quintessence
service and overall bloody usefulness in my daily life.
withoust thee my wires would all be astray and my comestible packets would all left gaping and bereft
hear hear

noted      ::october 16th 2004

this was on my frenster profile for quite sumtime.i figure its time to move on.a shame to just simply delete it tho,obviously sum thoughts has gone to writing it *snort* NOT!

neurotic::tone deaf::physcopath::caffein withdrawal::morgue island::mishap::misfit::high suicidal tendencies::baskin 31 R::high heels::chick fict::demented::former body piercing enthusiast::prescribtion prozac::globe trotting::pseudo autistic::permanent head wound&trauma::mash potatoes::7 yrs o'undecided french conjugating::nocturnal::perpetual paranoia::closet feminist *batteries not included*

*choke* shall i ever be this eloquent again? *guffaws* *die laffing*

ingenuity is my middle name. erm, actually 'aldrina' is but u get the idea.


postscript::gunners vs aston villa tonite.*sigh* wat i wudnt give for cable tv *sigh*

berbuka!

3 hours and 57 minutes to fast breaking
oh yeah

i can do this

feel so much more healthier (and thinnr) alreadi

jom puasa

just anotha 4 lettered word

ive been busy
between watching crap movies and overloading my sleeping quota, im kinda sorta having my finals right now
2 down 4 to go

finals lodown
done
accounts shud u ever dissolve a partnershp n need to realised ur assets. u kno who to call. not me, obviousli
maths II recurring nightmare *puke* mngulang itu indah. ahem

oncoming
global marketing 20th read read and forget. its globally like that
ecommerce security 26th all u hackers out there, holla y'all
service marketing 27th ultimate service::escort service, 24hours daily.
MIS 29th streamlined prostitution. hohoho

i normalli get readi around 12 hours prior to the paper
getting readi like "erm, fred-is this chapter coming out? no? oh well, dis one then?"
which wud be sumting like
SUPER FRANTIC fark fark fark ICK
but i work best under duress
i tink

bugger that

man
photo sharing online sux
stil browsing for d bestest online album
so, pending piccies posting laa

still sticking to flickr now
flickr rox
but aint that happy wif it
mebbe im just to stupit
oh well
stupit is a stupit does

cower brief mortals

project 1 presentation last tuesday
hohoho
big fat bludi joke
fiasco of the highest order
my varsity lecturers and me both take idiocy to a whole other level
but hey, i did okay [now, where haf i heard dis b4??]
i didnt hafta redo my report [which 78.9% of my collegues was ordered to]
but man oh man, cant believe sum people are actually getting paid to do a stupid day to day redition of 'believe me, im not stupit, im your lecturer'
and i meant that wif the utmost respect
*choke*

next big thingy on my planner;
finals
incoming in 2 weeks
thats 2 weeks too long
hohoho
and oh ramadhan around there too
cant wait-we buka puasa here about an hour earlier then in kl
wow eh?
lalalala

huda dah nak pegi
choi
shes driving and im too broke to catch a bus
so, later homeslices

postscript:najwa-piccies in uploading process. getting an album soon
see la, bludi pmalas laa, takkan tak tahu kot
lalalala..how u doin? dah habes ganti puasa??

oh drama. the trilogy

here's n undrstatement: i had fun
cant say much cause then my whole morgue island ideal wud be blown to smithereens, no?
at the risk of soundng as if i cud actualli enjoy miself in this place::the drama comp was ok
realli ok

gots sum kewl pics but havnt been uploaded yet
so, soon?
mebbe
i was the host dat nite, ykno.
i tink i did ok
muahahhahah-u kidding?
i did great, i tell u. i was magnificent. i was fantastic. i was fabulous.
muahahahhaha
and oh: its my blogpage and i can brag if i want to.
lalalala

ben linggam
saje nak tulis dalam blog aku so sume orang tau ben tu xxxxx[statement di-blank-kan cause terlalu racist]

my project 1 presentation tomoro
im shittng bricks
losing sleep over it too
erm, maybe not realli losing sleep but i cud be
just dat im way too cool n adapt at handling pressures
im cool
300 pm september 28th. [says my postitnotes]
bludi crap man
im so gonna crash and burn
but im cool
im soooo screwed
lalalala
but then, wat else is nu?

oh drama part II

an hour and 45 minutes to go
then its showtime!
me emcee for drama nite comp which is tonite
it clashes wif dis malay artistes awrd ceremony on tv
highly anticipated or so i heard
the award thingy, not d drama comp
me, the project secretary and buncha guys i worked wif for my VC projct been working on the hall deco for 2 days straight.stringing baloons and stuff
the guys arent even the hall deco committee but nice enuff to help

oh fark
ben wanna go
he's got the car
me gotta go wif him
updates on the drama comp later, mebbe

oh drama.

there's gonna be a drama comp tomorro.
no,this drama queen isnt taking part
part of the organizing committee,see.
me the secretary cum ur emcee for the night
lalala
what to wear what to wear
thinkng of wearng my BI patch skirt
tapi i dun haf matchng tudung
*horror*
i guess i shud be worried about my impending data security quiz which is, erm, impending, like, urm, tonight
...
wow. my nu eclipse stilettos wud so go wif the skirt
oh yeah, the test
im worried about dat too, of course. Intrusion Detection System. gonna get quizzed on dat. worried, me very worried.
..lalala

UPDATES ON MY NU FOUND CHRONIC SHOPPING AFFLICTION DISORDER (CSAD)
im keepng records on my spendng now
sum websites says weirdos like moi wud recognize their retarded spending frenzy if they keep track of their financial status daily.
so i spreadsheet *spreadshit* my daily belanja
its been a week, almost
can tentatively say its kinda workng
but being here in MORGUE ISLAND away from the real danger of retail shoppng, the absolute result is anyone's guess
and im guessing::are u kidding me?i have a 9 years worth of shopping addiction to overcome.
but im working it out.however slow and excrutiating [sp?]
haniff sed:u mean only now u kno?? *snigger*"
sod off la, bud :P

wats dat word again~

shop-a-holic
[shoppaholic?shoppamaniac?]
i admit
im an addict
prescribtion of retail therapy on the rocks
what else wud u call demolishing 1G in one month buying absolutely nothing of importance?
i need help
where do i start?
*its a sad, cruel world*

d~uh squared

sucky life
just finishd my mid term
technically theres still my calculus paper lurking over the weekend but consider burn la

going back home
the original plan was to go back today but then there was urm.. complications
abah off to perth today
ingat the whole family is tagging along-abah:4 days meeting us:4 days rondaronda
but then mak called and informed me dat the meeting was cut down to 2 days
so, since its not really worth it going perth for just 2 days, the frigging trip ws frigging cancelled
bummer bummer mondo bummer
her mahal ayat when i sounded pissed was "oi, brape kali nak jalan dlm one year?ni pun nak mujur mak ade bawak gi manemane.patutnye wif attitude like yours ni mak kurung dalam pantry je and let you live on telur rebus"
hot damn. that, ladies and gentlemen, is a world class dressing down from the one, the only-MY MOM
did i mentioned im almost 21??



speaking of which
OI people.
this is your frenly reminder dat my frigging 21st bday is coming. 5th sept.me wanna big prezziess.
ahem.
just how shameless can i get, huh?
hohohoho

hope to sort my blogpage out when i get home where internet connection is pretty patheticly decent.
hope la.
wif my astro deprivation and the EPL back and fastfood outles near and the mega sale still going on--hope could very easily disintergrate



later homeslices. me wif sum serious acedemic surfing mission *choke*

what the hell happen??

man, wat happen?
i tink i messed up my blog page
shit
i shall restore when i have the time
this sux big time
just finish the ASEAN women conference thingy
total nightmare, will tell all later
doing the BNCICT job now
busy busy

august sux

wat it is, august 3rd aite?

i already have stuffs planned for the 23th.

and its not even gud stuf, more like like when my mountains of account assigments is dued and my mid term global test and stuff
*groan*

dang
who ever thot of studying wud be dat hard??

August 8th - 12th off to k.kinabalu. Shiren, eelin and i got to be emcees for sum asian women conference thingy there.
August 13th - 14th BNCICT in Sheraton Labuan.
August 15th Global Marketing Mid term *gasp*
August 16th 2 account assignments due. also acc mid term
August 21st MIS midterm.
~okay. now u guys see why i so wanna kill miself.
life is gud.


miss my mom and dad and lil bro
miss my bf too


a wisdom tooth of mine broke. oh yeah. it broke periodically, it throbs. im off of zombie chews zombie chews::one the many junkfuds im hooked to, hafta haf abundant supply at all time. gud for rotting teeth ergo my tooth tale for today for the meantime but im kinda hoping ill get it fixed up soon so i can get back to sucking zombiechews. nyum.


gotta go. a proposal to write, a website to design, housemate to terorize. and yeah, theres the asigments i hafta do pun. *snort*

busy busy busy

man o man

u guys kno busy? oh im living it. big time.

but first things first::mom's alright. yay!! she got outta the hosp like, last friday and she's fine and roaring to go, well, to teach at least. YAY!!



theres my exdormate here in lbuan, studyng at my campus-talk about freaking small world.

between skool and homeworks and meetings and clubs and stuff-im actually happy here right now

before u ask-yes, thats weird, although possible. rare though

we had 2 bday parties this last coupla weeks. that was fun

u kno what, i seriously have no idea what to say

just letting people kno that im alive so quit ur worrying *snort*

and kids-frens near and far-wen u drop by here, leave ur url or add or sumthing so i can, like link up [elena::im sorta talking about u]

so im outta here, homeslices-dun forget to eat ur greens, take care

wanna go home

mom called today

from the hospital

she was admitted cause her blood pressure was way too high

i had to sit down then.

called my sister in uia

i was upset, i panicked and we sorta shouted at each other

real grown up huh?

mom is in tawakal, gombak. ongoing tests.

feel like im wanna puke

would give up anything, just to be wif her right now.

shes gonna be alright

i realli realli wanna be at home

shitty life-

dead, but accounted for..

i last wrote about a mOnth ago..
hahahaha
hows that for commitment slash enthusiasm slash happening life
*guffaws*
so, in the highly unlikely case that someone is interested in whats going in my pathetic sad ass life, heres a lil sumting sumting::

:O:greece won euro !! big suprise? mebbe not
:O:haniff and i celebrated our second year anniversaire. yay shocking ainnit??how the hell we lasted this long? no idea fred. but i love him, so there
:O:im back in labuan i did mention my life is sad and pathetic, rite?
:O:shiren [check former pubs, u'd kno who she is] broke up wif her bf. it was a 'omigawd u guys did wat??' kinda drama
:O:im so totally in lovvee wif kaer the underage guy from akademi fantasia "how malay can u get, nell?" sez shiren hohohoho
:O:my cpu died on me, thats twice this week. its back in the workshop-ive been seriously fazed without it. nick, the tech guy at the pc shop is a total hottie tho, wif an OK english so cant say im completely suffering here *giggle*

oh, im doing a research paper for my final year project: the very first in the history of the campus to do a research paper-usually kids would normally just create an online system or website or 3D animation or a kiosk or stuff. am i cool or am i cool??
the title::deficient internet connection standard contributes to the diminutive involvement in online business activities-a case study of labuan
are you impressed yet? *snort*
i havent started shit but life has been incredibly, harrowingly, utterly, intensely, farking busy lately. lemme tell you all about dat

so the semester started, in like, the first time in my adult life, i wsa here for the registration [hohoho, i love you shiren, i love you eelin] it was mostly because i have sum serious dealings wif the residential office in campus. they gave me a house alright, a friggin junior block! but thats a whole different story, and i registered and suffered thus my life as a senior in campus began. the asignments from the lecturers started right about that time too. i mean, heaps and hordes and heaps of homework to do. doesnt matter if youve been to one class only, here's 30 essay questions for you to do still. its a total ongoing nightmare. but im prevailing. planning not to extend so i hafta. im keeping up but it has only been like, 3 weeeks [has it only been three weeks??!!!] so, we'll see
bottom line: im drowning under loads of homework and its only beginning of the semester. weird? hell yeah. this is labuan. starting to think the lecturers had a mass brain transplant during the semester break, upgrading or sumthing. but its all good. *sigh* its all good.

and oh, good news for a change. im eligible for MENSA *smug*
dat means im smart, or something
hoho
there were this ramairamai testing the uni conducted last semester and i went and apparently i made it. wow. theres gonna be some big ceremony or sum shit later on, dunno when but im looking forward.
and oh, before u say anything, its my blogpage and i can brag if i want to.
la la la

so, thats about it
just letting the masses kno im not totally dead yet
i'll prolly write again inna month or two *laugh*
NOT
later dudes and dudettes
this is nella-out

postscript:
diba: i remembered u fred, big time. hows life? get back to me, k, lets catch up.
kak rabbi: me remembered you too, u oughta be dah kerja now kan? u get back to me too

football frenzy!!

i hate football and other relevent embodiment of the stupit game *choke*
me no like football

former life: paraplegic cuban sloth

im too friggin lazy to do anything
~wat else is new, eh?
was wif big, grande plans for my blogging career~now dat i kno there's actually people reading it. phreaks!
but suprise-i was too lazy to do it. still am.

yawn.yawn.laze.snore.gaze.yawn.wriggle.laze

i got this somewhere:lazy::the idle, the slothful, those who waste time, those who procrastinate, those who slack off, those who would rather be napping, those who take the elevator, and those who prefer their meals to be "instant"
and i thot to miself "i cudnt describe miself any betta than that"

oh im happy. n if u haf a problem wif dat-too bad. right now, im too lazy to care. yay!

so here's to all those slackers and laze'rs out there. cheers!

thou shalt endevour to diminish thy sloven-ly ways

Things I've Been Doing Since I Got Home
Day One
gorged miself on burgerking about an hour after touchdown
~arrived home @11pm so didnt get to do much

Day Two
ab.so.lu.te.ly.no.th.in.g
~was sick the whole day, prolly becos the sucky KL weather as well as the time zone changing thingy.cough.drool.


Day Three
went to see Chikin¹ and Monkee² at SunwayPyramid
went to Sot's 21st bday @his very-far-bro's house wif bf and his posse. giggle.
came home xtremely late like, 11 pm on account of the very far birthday venue.
got a look from dad and a silent treatment from mom. groan


¹ is Eelin. Penang Girl Extraordinaire. One of Lamb's closest girlfren. A member of The Labuan International Campus we-speak-english-wif-proper-grammar club.
² is one of my bestest college buddies. is Shiren Naidu of the Subang Naidus (whaaat?) among the 3 ppl in campus who speaks english for daily communication.

Day Four
went to Kedah wif whole family. proceeded wif shopping once arrived. traveled about 1 km of Thailand on foot in 2 hours. bought funky pants but methink me hafta work on thighs a bit. smirk.

Day Five
more Siam shopping. went nuts on yummy lychees. 4 bucks for a kilo. oh man.
homeward bound
arrived at 10. saw man plastered all over road on way back, obviously dead on account of living people wud have more head on a body. never realized how much brain matter we cud paint the road wif if our head is split open.ponder.


Day Five
my bro's 15th bday. yay.
whole family went to see Harry Pothead III. what a disapointment. ick. double ick

Day Six
went out wif Haniff i.e. my bf. tried to catch Shrek II but the whole Malaysian population decided to do so too.
checked out the nu OneUtama mall. wasnt paying much attention to the shops cause im BLOODY BROKE and dat is never fun
came home before 7pm.proud. sorta making up for the last time wen i fcuked up my curfew time. me gud girl, non?

dat puny dot u cant really see

okay, u ppl wanna kno wher xactly is the infamous MORGUE ISLAND right?
heres a map
for those aliens: i live in kuala lumpur left hand side, second box down from top
but i study in gud ol labuan, which is not on the map [suprises, suprises]is near brunei
which is on yer right hand side.
see that speck between brunei and kota kinabalu??
yeah, dat pathetic excuse of an island is where im currently at
its a 2.5 hours flight from home

saddddddd ainnit?

i heart junkfud~!!

so i like to eat
appropriate gluttony, i say
*munch*

@current, im craving for::
burgerking's double whooper wif xtra cheese
huge glass of cold cocacola wif lime
starbucks praline cheescake wif grande vanilla americano
cream cheese nachos
decreamed oreos wif cold milk

~my lactose and caffein addiction isnt dat obvious right ??

life is guuud~

im a very emotional creature
i feel deeply about things
i cant help it
i prolly have the most violent, voilatile recurring mood swings in the history of female PMS
~especialli wen im off my meds
i never cry at movies,tho [[xcept for dat one time, but it doesnt count.snort]]
so i guess my emotional side is bizzarely under control most of the time
sayin dis makes me very aware the grit it takes for my bf/family/frens to cope wif neurotic me day in/out. wow, u people-u strong
i genuinely feel a lot for thing/people/stuff/situation around me-its almost disturbing
designated busy body with tear ducts/happly glands included
and i think (in a certain weird way) im blessed because of dat
as a fren so wisely put it::too young to be jaded,too warm to be a cynic, too alive to be dead
*deep sigh*

i was sooo blurdee pissed off earlier today, i was wif goosebumps
but as mad as i was; i had to rmind myself to curse [metinks appropriate cursing makes the oh-im-so-mad-right-now situation official]
realizing dat, i figured im not that mad, actualli
a tad peeved @ certain campus' staff for their imbecility, impracticality, inanity, ineptitude, infantile paralysis to perform wat theyre paid for but hey-they world's full of people like them, non?
so, i raved and screamed and pounded my chest--kidding!
i bitched a lil and went on wif my life
as i wud normally do
~actualli it was more bcause my A.D.D kicked in by then but stil-


life's too short to stay pissed at sumthing longer than 10 seconds
oh yeah

home bound countdown!

im coming home tomorrow
hopefully
if things work out they way i planned
which they rarely do
big day today
the net was down yesterday and the day before dat
i was blogless for 2 days-mean pricks all of them
gotta hafta run
have a house to move into
and a script to make shine
life is always good-rpeating dis to miself wif high hopes i wud believe it sumday

boxes, markers, tapes

i started packing coupla hours ago.
always a joy to be putting ur earthly belongings in a box only to have to unpack it a few days later.
all thanks to the efficient-ness and prompt actions of the campus' residence office
NOT!!!
im serious, people
these are highly imbecilic creatures trying to pass off as human beings
they're like the result of sum failed cross-breeding expriments between sum brainless unicell organism and cockroaches. all they do is aid the global warming via their collective CO₂

been sniffling all day. sniffle. perpetual throbbings to left side of head too. and tummy ache, big time
i need::strong dose of a triple-grande-xtra whipped cream-vanilla-mocha wif caramel drizzle
but life is gud
i have a lot to be thankful for
life is definitely gud
right on

thought today were on:home, bodily fluids, crowley, flickr frens, my boyfren, ikea's laundry bag, life in general [i scared miself after 3 minutes of pondering on this so i stopped]

ultimate packing adventure
kitchen wud need 1 box
toileteries wud need 1 box
odds n ends wud fit in 1 box
2 boxes for shoes
prolly 6 boxes for clothes
1 box for linens and beddings
1 big box for all the books

boxes galoreeee

me?!in deep sh*t?!i resent dat!!

living (mostly) by miself since im 12, i sorta kinda hafta work most thgs out on my own. its like a built-in mechanism, u get betta at striving the longer u messes things up , especialli wen u wish no one wud kno. n trust me, there's been a lot of trouble i've manage to get miself into in my short pathetic 21 years o' living on God's gud earth. escaped wif a few scratches sometime, but i think generally i prevailed. i wud worry and feel absolutely shitty about it for a day or two [a few special miraculous cases only requires hours nsted] but after dat i wud be a-okay and somehow work my way outta it.
take right now for instance, the one thing on my mind is my residency status in campus [[how i f*ck dis one up: i sent the application form about 1 month after its dued. it got stuck somewhere and i unearthed it one month too late. so now they say they hafta consult the rest of the comittee to review my case and i can only kno the result in 5 days]] ick. wat is there to consult? its either u give me a room or u dont, right? and 5 days? hello, space machines were built in days less than that. i mean, of course there sadistic pleasure in making me wait and cringe but hey, try doing dat to some1 who cares, k? but after sum serious prompt unloading/bitching session, i've got sum backup plans, so im considerably good. sigh. lets hope my luck wud still hold. double sigh. wat i need right now is double scoops of baskin robins very berry strawberry and some waffles, with butter. i gotta get outta this place. suprised?


oh yeah, bring it on baby.
gimme gimme

burnt tongue

2 major meals in less than 5 hours.laugh.alright, go ahead, tell me something i dont know

today, i thought about
life
choosen life careers [if i am to haf any]
which block to reside next semester
relationships in my life [fake, flake and failing]
money [gimme a time when i dont think about this]
internet connection in this god forsaken place
my family
the 5 bucks i owe my next door neighbour
the sexuality of certain faculty members here
my weight [hohoho, but then thinking about doesnt mean i'm gonna do anything about it, right?

the little things in life

so nell, hows life has been s'far?
peachy, just peachy






grab a chair, this may take a while
its friday, already. and i barely noticed tuesday. im sposed to tell mom dat im not coming home today, but since my phone credit is sadly bordering on 'nonexistant' [u shud kno this is the typical state of credit for me to be in, its all those important calls dat haf to be made, see.snort.] i think i'll just wait for mom to call nstead.grin. a cousin is gettng hitched dis sunday n coventional family law says "get ur butt back home, we need u to man the dish washing post". however, they hafta make do without me dis time. as xciting s dish duty seems

but i do plan to go home, soon. next week prolly. coupla weeks @home, unwind. eventho if i unwind anymore i'd prolly start goin backwards unfirewalled internet connection, unlimited cable tv access, shopping malls, burgerking, shoe shops, starbucks, books stores::man o man, civillisation never sounded better.swoon. and theres my family and frens too, bein sur


shud u ask "okay, wats the deal wif the MORGUE ISLAND stuff?"
the deal is dis,baby::the stuf aforementioned? yeah, those. as unbig-as-a-deal they may seem to u, i, on the otha hand, hafta travel for like, 3 hours via airplane to get remotely close to it.
now do u geddit?
yesh, im stuck here
and oddly enuff, im stuck here by option
this place, of which slowing zapping my youth, depleting my fun in life and slowly turning me into a very suntanned, buffalo wings eating-fashion victim is to be my domain for @least a year more
oh yes, stupit is prolly more my domain
and dont i kno it
but a girl gotta do wat a girl gotta do
sigh

blog mania!!

okay.
tell me its not just me faking life most of the time.
tell me normal people does it too
tell me its okay to smile bile wen ur so-called frens morphed
into pests dat irrirates the hell outta u and al u wanna kno is just wat were u thinking wen u promote him in to be ur fren
it is normal right?

now dat i got that outta my system

so today was/is hectic wif a capital H
between learning how to blog n the crash creation of the stupit interview video we were asked to make in like, 6 seconds and dissing frens and starving to death,it was still kinda fun!!



eat now
later,the blogging shall go on

THE disputed over lamb

me as lambie

lamb, lambie
19 years old [in lobster years]
born: queens street, nu zealand
species:dangly fridge magnet

me as nella

shuhaime, nella
21 years old [in hobbits reckoning]
born:kuantan, malaysia
species:partial mutant singing bass

see the resemblences?

so a blog side of me is born

wif LOKPI breathing ciggy smoke all over me-i finally took my first plunge in blogging wif the rest of the world.

i was a bit apprehensive @1st-thinking dat no one wud
ever B botherd to read a blog from me but
seeing the less erm, interesting stuff my fello
compatriots bloggers has to offer-im kinda sorta
almost convinced dat i cudnt do any worse cud i?

wat do i plan to blog?
stuf i haf goin on in my head.most of d time
it feels like its gonna
xplode [most o it overrated anyway]
and everyone knows i haf an opinion about
everything and everyone so blogging sounds
like a very good idea non?
yes-i talk a lot:means i think about wat im to
talk a lot too
there is a brain connected
to this motormouth, people